Whose am I

As a Christian,  I am not my own. I was purchased - with a price. Though one segment of a life dedicated to thanking God for buying me back is being a servant of all, I am not the property of others.  I belong to the one.  The true one. The "I Am" that created,  maintains,  feeds with goodness,  and will judge all who call themselves by his name... and all that don't. 

For the longest time I have (in my effort to live as a servant of all) made the confusion inducing mistake that central to the servant-life is giving every effort to gauge the feelings and opinions of those around me. That, somehow, it is my responsibility to figure out how people are broken and adjust my healing process to fix them. This can be exhausting, and quite honestly destructive.

I believe I am supposed to constantly gauge how my life's temperature is in relation to God, and as a result I will be a servant of all.  I am not required to be a temperature gauge for everyone around me.  I am not the cure for all that is broken. I have found the cure. I am not the cure.

I want to live as a great subject in this theocracy.

There is nothing that fails like success

Instant gratification it is truly one of the most destructive diseases of our day. If I give up playing a sport because I lose a game, or if I quit playing an instrument because I missed a note... sounds stupid.

Nothing in this world is so unwise than the celebration of worldly wisdom. This celebration is so founded on fluid thought that it can only be celebrated by a man or woman willing to let go of everything they have thought up till now for whatever is shiny and new in front of them. In this pursuit, there is so little tenacity that the core of what is needed for wisdom is lost the moment a new thought is presented.

As our modern political field is teaching us, there is nothing so unproductive and hollow as the pursuit of immediate victory and the necessary follow up abandonment of every core belief because of the latest poll.

There is nothing that fails like success.